Happy ‘Fucking’ Thursday my friends. May it be a good one.
Love, Sparkly Nee
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WordPress Family Award (Yes, We ARE a Dysfunctional Bunch)
“When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I’m already better than them.”
― Marilyn Monroe (Psssst, I added the Marilyn quote. I’m feeling snarky today.)
I feel so touched by being nominated for this award from KindredSpirit23. (I know I will NEVER be Freshly Pressed so I do participate in the awards. Wanna know how I know I’ll NEVER be FP’d? Because the word, shitty is in my tag line, AND I say the word, fuck, A LOT!
The rules are as follows:
1. Display the award logo on your blog.
2. Link back to the person who nominated you.
3. Nominate 10 others you see as having an impact on your WordPress experience and family
4. Let your 10 Family members know you have awarded them
5. That is it. Just please pick 10 people who have taken you as a friend, and spread the love.
Now, I am no different from anyone else. I have more than 10 friends here and will find it difficult to choose. If I don’t choose you, please don’t think that means we aren’t friends and/or that I don’t love you intensely. You are each and every one special and I doubt you know how much you enrich my life each time I read a post or a comment. I do this to share in this wonderful community. That being said, there are those of you who have expressed some desire not to be given awards; I will try to honor that, was well.
Here is my list:
1) t from As Long as I’m Singing (The best man I know. I am honored to call him my brother and to be loved by him.)
2) Bradley from You Jivin’ Me Turkey (The sweetest, most mixed up kid I know. All I want to do, is put my hand on him and still his restless spirit.)
3) Rochelle from Rochelle Wisoff-Fields-Addicted to Purple (Rochelle has been a godsend to me. She has taught me to tell a story in 100 words. I’m honored to have her grace my stories with her wisdom.)
4) Duncan Swallow from Nobody’s Reading Me (He’s my WP dad. Love you, ya snarky, cranky ass Brit. Hmpf….)
5) La La from Charm City Chick (Oh my La La. I love her so. She makes me laugh and warms my heart. You think she’s always funny, but believe me this chica is multi-faceted.)
6) Chris DeVoss from Chris DeVoss of course (He’s my other brother. A dorky dude. Funny as fuck, but has a soft side too. Shhhh, don’t tell anyone though. :-))
7) Kayla Lords from A Sexual Being (My sister, friend, and so much more. I don’t know what I’d do without her.)
8) Cat Forsley (My lovely sis, Cat. She is a force of nature all in herself. Love you sweetness. You’re the best.)
9) Rincewind at Erotixx (I never in my wildest dreams would have guessed I would become so close to a Swedish dude that lives in London. Especially one that is enamored with pin up babes and burlesque. I love you babe. The world is better place with you in it.)
10) Benjamin at Expressions of My Life (What a good man my B is. He is such a gentle soul. His words and art soothe me. I have confided in him and he has kept my secrets. I love you B.)
Thank you all!
My Brother Rory
I sought my soul, but my soul I could not see. I sought my God, but my God eluded me. I sought my brother and I found all three.-author unknown
I ended my night by corresponding with my soul brother, Rory. I love that man more than words can convey. When I started writing just over a year ago, this wonderful writer started following me. Why he’s not published is beyond me.
I don’t have too much more to say about him, except that I’m happy he’s in my life. He doesn’t judge me. I don’t judge him. He’s the best brother a silly woman like me can have. Wish I could tell you all who he is. I promised I’d protect his identity.
I love you my dear, sweet brother. I breathe easier knowing that you’re out there rooting for me. And loving me.
Love, Nee
A Split Apart
I gazed at the photograph of her and knew Curt her husband, took it. He likes to capture her at moments when she is most herself. I remarked that she was beauty. Right there, in the simple shot of her glowing and thoughtful face.
Blue eyed.
Blonde haired.
Serene, yet the wheels are turning.
She flits from one thing to another.
Her heart is large.
Her vocabulary stellar.
She is mighty with the written word.
The spoken word.
She is an artist.
Everything she sees, she sees potential in.
She found beauty in me. In my heart.
We didn’t speak to each other for 30 years.
Audibly anyway.
Our words made us friends, sisters, split aparts.
Our souls intertwined.
She gave me confidence.
She gave me strength by loving me.
Her photos inspire me to write.
She inspires me.
We will love each other.
Till one of us expires.
Even then, when we are on that other vibration.
We will watch over one another.
The first photo prompt I ever wrote a story for was hers. I titled it West Virginia in the Summer Time. It wasn’t viewed by many bloggers. But it was one of my favorite stories. Fiction. Something I was new at writing. The journal entries were getting old. I needed something more. Tracy provided that. She still does. Words flow through me whenever I peruse her photo albums.
You Continue to be the Life of Me
Our brothers and sisters are there with us from the dawn of our personal stories to the inevitable dusk.-Susan Scarf Merrell
Enjoying the mid-morning bustle of the coffee shop, Tia and Ray take in the sweet smell of pastry in the air begrudgingly. Tia, with her head bowed stares into her coffee cup, hoping for some sort of salvation. She’s ashamed, and dreads the conversation she feels coming on between her brother and herself, the one where she’ll tell him yet again of another sad story of “love lost.” For his part, Ray simply waits, holding his coffee cup close to his lips. He blows on the steamy brew gently to cool it, but manages to burn his lip upon his first sip anyway.
After the usual expletive, Ray knowingly says, “Sis, again? Really, you have to stop running away from your shame.”
Giving him a wounded smile, Tia replies, “You know I can’t. Even after all these years and instances, wounds are fresh, painful to the touch. You know it’s how we were raised. We were always afraid of being inadequate. Not worthy.”
While she speaks, Ray takes Tia’s hand into his, and begins caressing it gently with his fingertips.
“Fuck this bullshit. Let’s finish this damn coffee and go get fresh ink!”, Tia blurts out defiantly.
“No Sis,” Ray replies, “We need to talk, to get this all out in the open. Out of your system.”
“Out of my system,” Tia almost cries, “What do you want me to say? That daddy always belittled me, so that’s why I chase unavailable men? Big fucking deal. I’m a wreck. It happens.”
“Come on now Tia,” Ray implores, “It was the same dad who told me that I was a sissy, just because I had trouble holding back my feelings. He told me I had to be tough. ‘Walk it off,’ he would say. And what did that do for me, except cause me to spend years questioning my sexuality.”
“But I’m not like you, Ray. I am tough,” Tia replies “I don’t need to love like you do, stability, a home. All I need is to fuck, drink, smoke, and swear. I don’t need anyone or anything to get in the way of that. I just… I just want to run till I die.”
Shaking his head, Ray bluntly states, “You’re so full of shit Sis. You do want love. You want someone to take your body, mind and soul. You want that person to tell you it’s okay to be fucked up. It is OK, you know.” Then softening, Ray says, “You want to be loved, I can see it in your eyes. They speak far louder than your actions.”
Tia’s angry eyes soften at her brother’s words. “Brother, you’re a good one. And you’re right, I do want to be loved-I deserve to be loved. But who will have me? I’ve wrecked my life. I’ve got nothing to offer but my sex. Who will love me for that alone?”
Exasperated, Ray blurts out, “Sis, listen to you. Don’t be so goddamned pitiful! See that you have much more to offer than ‘just your sex,’ and you’ll start to be able to love yourself. Love yourself first. Then others will follow suit.”
“Gawd Ray, that is such bullshit! I’ve loved myself so much already, that my clit is broken.”
Looking at her, Ray begins to laugh so hard that he chokes, chortling, “Woman, you are a nut!”
“Yes dear, I know,” responds Tia, “But I sure am fun! You know, you’re right – I do want love. I want to put my heart out there. I want to wake up in the morning next to a man I know could tear my heart out, but won’t. The kind that will let me fall apart and hold me, that will let me scream, throw dishes and act like a child. And then when I’m done going crazy, soothe me with kind words and gentle hands. But I also want a man who’ll kick my ass when I need it, too. I want to be loved fully!”
“Then you’ve got to wait for Mr. Right, instead of Mr. Right Now, right?” questioned Ray.
“Right. I tell ya what Broseph, if I promise to swear off booze and sketchy men, will you promise to swear off the self-loathing you’re so good at?” responds Tia hopefully.
“It’s a deal Sis,” Smiles Ray, “And about that fresh ink?”
Giving Ray a lopsided grin, Tia responds with, “Oh honey, that’s going to happen. I’ve already texted my artist and made an appointment. Drink up, we have to be there in a half hour!”
“You’re going to be the death of me, you know that, right?” laughs Ray.
“Ah yes,” Tia now beams, “But you continue to be the life of me, I mean, until Mr. Right comes along. Now let’s blow this pop stand, and get tattooed!”
