My ex-husband asked me how when we suffer a relapse we are welcomed back into AA with open arms. I turned the question around on him and asked, why wouldn’t I go back to a place that would welcome me back even if I did falter? God knows my family wouldn’t do that. In most cases all they feel for me is anger. In the rooms I’m welcomed back because I’m just as broken as the person sitting next to me.
We are all just one drink or drug away from relapse and ultimately death. That’s what this disease wants to do, it wants to kill me. It wants to scream in my ear all of the bad things I’ve done to make me so covered in guilt and shame that I pour myself into a bottle and die.
A normal person doesn’t think this way. A normal person doesn’t drink this way. And a normal person can not understand the power of surrender in AA. Admitting to this surrender is the only way I can win.
Renee Writes Here 
I know nothing about addiction, not because there are no addicts in my family because there is. I really found this post interesting
I’m an addict in early recovery and the TED talk that I included with my post taught me so much.
Bless you for being so open about it. Best of luck and keep on going the straight line.
Thank you Rincewind. Mwah!!
So wonderful to read you again!
Scott
Thank you and thanks for the reblog!
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Watch the Ted Video!!!