You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy, when skies are gray
Mommy used to sing this song to me when I was a child. There were so many nights when I couldn’t sleep,because I was scared of the dark, and I was scared of the quiet. I was scared of the next day at school, and the struggles I would face there. Mom did her best to ease my fears with singing before we’d go to sleep. Of course I didn’t go to sleep. I sweated about sharks, and things that go bump in the night. I sweated over bullies and the fact that I couldn’t do math. Mom had no idea how scared I was because I was never able to tell her. So instead we sang to each other.
I hated that everything scared me and would continue to until I was in my late 20’s. I hated that I was afraid of the dark and used a nightlight until I was 30. I hate that now that I live alone, I’m afraid of the dark again, even though I live in an apartment building that is relatively safe. I hate being afraid and I hate who I am. But then I think about Mom and the way we sang to each other when I was a child. I remember the comfort I felt for those few moments in time, and how safe I was.
When I was young Mommy and I sang together, and even when we do now I continue to feel safe. She did the best she could to help me and continues to do so to this day. She doesn’t understand me but that’s okay, I know now she does the best she can for me.
You make me happy when skies are gray
You’ll never know dear how much I love you
Please don’t take my sunshine away….
Beautifully written Renee. By opening your heart and speaking a truth, it will release you, because you have given it with courage. Namaste
Thank you Mark.
Love, Renee
We all need to keep some sort of light on for our fears.x
Oh yes my dear we most certainly do.
Love, Renee
I know the song and have always liked it, all good mums try to ease the fears of their children
That’s what moms are for aren’t they? To feed us PBJ’s and ease our fears.
Love, Renee
I used to sing the same song to my son. I would sing to him now, if he’d let me.
Tara, sing it anyway. My son is 23 and I sing him the baby Beluga song all the time. He shakes his head at me and calls me crazy, but that’s okay.
Love, Renee
I do sing “What I Like About You.” I do a little dance, and he rolls his eyes at me.
If he’s rolling his eyes then you’re doing it right!
nice